28.10.09

nyahahhaa..
hr ni keanya hr rubuu.. nd skolah gw kea memperingati hr PBB gtuu.. jd bnyk yg pke btik gtuu,, ada jg yg pke kostum dr negara lainn..
ahhaha
oiaaa,, kmrn team cwe HS Binus mng lhoo lwn sanur.. scorenya gw lupa brp,, tp 20an gtuu lhaa.. ga beda jauh jg c mngnyaaa.. hwahahha
tp gaa cm tu doank c..
aahha
maluuu mengatakaan.. nyahahha
tp yg jelas gw bersyukur bgt ma Tuhan Yesus yg dag wat hr gw menyenangkan.. hwiwhihi
binguung neh.. mca iaah gw sk gy ma c ''jay chouu"??
cm gara" wkt tuu.. hmmm..
auu lhaaa.. gausa d pikiriin.. just let it flow...
hahahah

Gbua

my confession..

okeh,,, mo nulis,,, tp ga tw mo mulai dr mna...

wkwkwk...

yoda,, gni jaa..

nii hidup mkin lama mkin susah d mengertii..

ato bs gw blg,, mungkin gw ga ngerti apa".. hal" yg gw jalanin slama nii,, ru seperempat hal yg bkal terjadi for my whole entire life..

rasanyaa beda"..

kdg bkin gw sng bgt,, ga lama kmudian,, ada ajaa yg bs bkin gw nangis ga karuan karna gw ngerasa hr tu adalah hr terburuk yg prnah gw jalanin..

pengen d skip,, ga bs..

klo mati bunuh diri pun,, dosa..

ujung"nyaa msk neraka jg...

serba salaaah gila!!

skalinyaa gw mencoba wat kluar dr rumah spy gw bs sndiri dlu,, gw pengen nangis sepuas gw tuk ngelepas kekeselan gw,, mpe d rmh,, d omelin jg..

aaaghh!! swt nii dunia.. gaa daa 1 org pun yg bnr" bs ngertiin gw..

skrg gw br sadar akan hal itu..

saat gw bnr" gy down,, gw nangis sendirian.. ga ada yg tw gw dimana,, ga ada yg tw btapa ancurnya hati gw nii,, ga ada yg tw kayak apaa gw sbnrnyaa.. even gw ga tw wat pa gy gw idup..

cm wat d sakitin?? ato cm jd batu sandungan?? ato jd sesuatu yg org lain mw utk gw lakuin,, sememtara mrk ga tw gmn gw struggle tuk jd sperti yg mrk mw?? 

apa yg bkin gw sediih,, apa yg bkin gw ga btah d rmh,,, dn apa yg bkin gw berlebihan akan sesuatu..

sapa yg tw??? ato,, siapa yg PEDULI??

people keep on wishing to be me..

but,,, what do they know??

even sometimes there's no song that could represent my feelings,, my life,, the way i'm thinking..

who knows, yow??

REFLECTION

mungkin lagu itu,, hampiir sepertii apa yg gw mw sebuah lagu untuk represent diri gw..

tanya kenapa??

hmm,, gw pun ga tw apa jwban pastinyaa..

tp,, gw berterima kasih bgt wat lo smw yg slama nii,,, dag nyoba wat nertiin gw..

gw tw tuu susah bgt..

gw ngertii knp..

well,, qta cm manusia yg pny keterbatasan... ga mungkin qta msk dlm hati org yg pling dlm..

maaf klo gw jg ga bs ngertiin lo" pada..

tp gw ykin lo smw pny Tuhan yg slaluu bs ngertiin lo..

nii ada bbrapa kalimat fav gw klo gy da masalah.. ni d ambil dr sebuah lagu..

'' He knows my name.. He knows my every thought.. He sees each tear that falls.. and hears me when i call..''

itu Tuhan gw,, dy tw smw yg gw alamin.. klo gw ulang" gy tuu lagu,, gw kdg ngerasa ga tw diri.. gw ngerasa ga layak..

Dia syg bgt ma gw.. lbih dr org lain.. dan gw syg bgt ma Dia,, tp gw sring bgt ngecewain dy.. gw berbuat dosa..

dn ituu yg buat gw jauh dr Tuhan.. itu jg yg bkin gw menderita..

tp Dia slalu ngasih gw kesempatan untuk bliq k jln yg bnr..

gw bersyukur pny Tuhan seperti Tuhan Yesus..

yg ga prnah ninggalin gw,,, kemanapun gw pegi..

tq,, Jesus.. i love You..

start of 11th grade

OMG!! ni pagi gw kbangun jam 3 pagi gara" adek gw kdinginan,, trz,, ganggu gw yg gy tdr dgn nyenyaknya mpe ga bs tdr gy mpe jm 5 akhirnyaa gw mandii!!

gilaaa,, tuu gw ga bs tdr karna mikirin klz 11 C!! padahal gw mending msk klz 11 D!! anyaa!!!

gw ga sklz ma trio cintah?!!! wtf!! walau gw sklz ma jaiicouu.. tp apa artinyaa klo tanpa tmn" gw??

useless abz!!!

shit man!! i prefer 10 F!!

cengo abz gw d klz C..

cm da cimol yg duduk sblh gw.. mci mending da dy nd cicii,, bkas naq 10 F jg.. 

klo gaa mo jd pa gw?? kambing congek yg cm duduk dgn manisnyaaa,, gaa bs ktawa" dgn enaknyaa!!

hwahaahahhahahahahahah!!!!!!

duuhhmm gw ga tw dch,, gmn bkal ngejalanin setahun nii tanpa naq" 10 f yg seru" tuu..

hampa bnr dag..

CA gw kli nii Mr. Leo..

gw lum tw jadwal gw kea gmn,, tp gw harap bs lbih baiik..

trz jg,, klz gw lum pny class monitor,, 

gw jg lum tw,, cpa ja yg bkal ngajar d social stream..

tp gw dag tw gw mw milih CCA apaa.. basket pastinya!!

sarana gw tuk mlepas keamsyongan yg terjadi slama jam pelajaran,, gw lampiasin smw pas gw gy main basket,, nd tuuu enak bgt.. hahha

hh,, but i hope i can get along with my new class..

well,, i can't be like this all year..

although it wouldn't be as nice as hen it used 2 be in 1o F..

but,,i'll try to open my heart nd,, yeah,,,, just enjoy it..

trying to b thankful 4 what God had given 2 me...

tq,, Jesus.. love U sooooo much..

kangeen!!

huaaahh,,, mendadak kangen maa team gw kt SMP.. tean yg solid,, gokil,, serruuu,, pa gy dgn coach yg asek abz!! hahaha..

biar gw sebuutiin nii yaa,, nama"nyaa..(sblmnyaa maaph klo da yg gaa d tls)

Team olpam 2008-2009:

-Vania

-Sydney 

-Shira

-Zella 

-Shinta 

-Farrah 

-Eugenia 

-Meidy 

 -Helly

-Olive

-Ella

nd gaa lupa coach qta: K' Jemmy

hhahahah..

ntah knp td pas gw k kmr dmna nyokab menimpan brg",, gw menemukan sebuah MEMORY BOX yg isinyaa kenangan" gw wkt SMP..

nd sebuah CLEAR HOLDER yg isinyaa artikel" nd ID card yg prnah gw pny selama gw qud cup wkt SMP...

langsung gw kyk kembali k suasanaa duluu.. tuu excited bgt klo dag dgr kt" basket..

d tambah gw bc diary gw,, pas bgt wkt gw bukaa dgn random,, tuu hr" pas dkt" kejuaraan.. gilaa,, spiritnyaa kerasaa bgt..

hhh...

kpn yaah, gw bs main gy ma mrk?? latihan kyk dluu gy..

seruuuunyaaaa..

gw bersyukur bgt krn gw pernah bs 1 team ma mrk..

fun bgt,, gw jd ngerti pentingnyaa kesatuan team dlm basket..

tq Jesus, You have given me a chance to be on that team..

whatev

hr niii gw akhirnyaa bgn sesuai kemauan gw..

wwkwkwkwk..

biz tuu yaa d rmh jaa,, ol mpe boseen..

hahaahah..

tp akhirnyaa d ajakin p.a..

hr nii gw p.a d pizza hut..

mknnyaa d byriin ma kk p.a gw..

heraan gw,, hobby bgt dy nraktir ade" p.a nyaa..

hehehe..

hmmm.. hr nii entah knp,, gw gaa mw mikirin masalah" pa yg bkal gw hadapin d hidup gw..

gw pengen nikmatin anugrah hidup dr Tuhan nii dgn baik..

bokap gw prnah blg jgn biarin 1 detikpun dlm hdup gw,, gaa bahagiaa..

krn qta gaa tw brp lamaa gy qta bs hidup..

nd stlah gw pkir",, bnr jg,,,

mending gw nikmatin nd syukurin apa yg dag gw pny skrg..

dprd slalu ngeluuh nd gaa bs nikmatin berkat Tuhan..

skrg gw bljr tuk enjoy jaa,, gausa terlalu mikirin seswatuu scaraa lebay..

tp,, bkn berartii hrz cuek bgt jg..

smw tuu hrz seimbang.. krn klo berlebihaan tuu kadang gaaa baaik..

hahah..

ok lhaaa.. that's all..

still wondering..

such a regret!!!

kadang gw berpikir yg gw jalanin skrg adalah yg pling bgs wat gw,, tp pd akhirnyaa gw nyesel krn dag terlalu percaya with what i feel and think..

which is gaa selamanya bnr..

lingkup yg gw liad mci terlalu sempit.. nd kadang gw ndirii yg gaaa beranii ngeliad seberapa luasnyaa dunia inii yg mci bs gw explore.. there's more in this world than we see..

need to learn my mistakes,, have to leave the past,,

gaa blh tenggelam dlm penyesalaan..

LIFE MUST GO ON.. 

Life is a dance.. learn as you go..

gaa akn pernah tw,, paa yg bkal lo hadapin k dpn..

just be thankful for what God will give to u..

WHICH IS THE BEST..

something that you never think,, hear and see..

just wondering if i could fix my problems by turning back to the day when i did my mistakes..

Akhirnyaa..

Asiiik!!!

ampir selesaii tuu semester exam!!

ahahahaha...

dag ag,, gausa d omongin,, amsyong dewek ntr gw..

hahaa..

mpe rmh,, mam trz tdr dchh..

hahha..

hmm,, sdih,, dgr" thn dpn,, gw gaa bs liad pencerahaan gw gy tipa hr..

huhuhu..

jgn dnk.. knal jaa lum,, mca dg mw pegii..

bandel dhe dy...

huaaaaahh!!!

bsk libuur.. asiikk..

hahhahaha..